| | I am.....exhausted. I am never still. It seems that there is never a moment for me to catch my breathe. This morning I woke up to go to church and I was so fatigued that I could barely pay attention, much less think clearly about what was being said. I felt incredibly useless and drained.
Somehow as I was sitting there I began thinking of the verse in Hebrews that says to run the race with perseverance. And then again in 1st Corinthians it says that all the runners in a race run, but only one shall get the prize. And Paul says in Phillipians that he is being poured out like a drink offering. I think about the implications of these verses for my life and how I don't even have the time anymore to sit down and ask God to take over in His strength. I desire my weakness and physical frailty to magically disappear....but God doesn't say we won't be tired. He just says that His yoke is easy and He will give us rest. Hebrews says His rest still stands.
Therefore, I will run the race as fast and as hard as I can. I will pour out absolutely everything. Why hold anything back? For what? For tomorrow? Well, God will supply the strength and grace I need for tomorrow when I get there. His rest for me stands today. I praise God that I cannot do the job He has set before me. As I have said before, He must do it. I am here to be expended.
I see now another reason why those long, quiet days in Peru were necessary. Practicing the presence of God in the moments where there is no other work to be done but prayer is crucial to the moments when silence cannot be found and all your strength and energy are demanded. I cannot forget Who paid my debt. |
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